Sunday, June 19, 2011

Rambling 04 It's not who you are mister Sumpter...

Jeremy Sumpter

So my latest infatuation, Jeremy, is totally just taking over my mind in all of it's capacity... I was watching clips of him on youtube. First I watched his tv-movie, Cyber Seduction: His secret life. First of all, it kinda sucked. It had a good message, but it really could've been done better. Much better. It could've been made into a proper movie, and really make people think, make the story deeper, make the message of the movie deeper and stronger... Buuuuut no. It's a shame cos I know Sumpter could've really done a better job with the part. At least I hope. But man did I enjoy the scenes where we get to see him kissing a girl... Grrrhhh. Haha. 
   Tho I was just little bit put off by how he grabbed the girls boob at one point, later in the film. That is NOT how you fondle/grab/caress/what-ever a girls/womans tits! My god, no no no. But I guess it's fine when he is, indeed, a teenager in the film. So thats that. Funny how this is a thing from the movie I obviously want you guys to remember, hahah. 
   Aaaanyway, film sucked, and I didn't really like how they portrayed porn/watching porn in the film. Tho I gotta remember that this was made on 2005, the computers were a lot more low-tech, and adults really didn't understand what was going on in the internet. I think it's way more open these days, and waaayyy more easy to get porn if you want to. I just really get pissed off if I see these close-minded adults/parents who think ALL porn is bad, and you shouldn't watch it EVER. Or the kind of parents who really think that they could actually prevent from their children seeing anything like it ever in their lives. Specially cos not only do kids watch porn, adults watch it also, many families actually have a problem not cos of the kids, but cos of a parent.
  But enough about that. I was watching other clips about Jeremy after that, and I got a REALLY good reminder about the fact why I don't really fall in love with the actor, I fall in love with the character and to the person I want them to be. I fall in love to a picture, that is colored by my imagination. I really don't want to know what kind of a person he is, what he likes and doesn't like. Cos I form an image of his personality very fast in my head, and I know, that it's not even close to the real Jeremy. I don't want to know if he's dating, or if he's an asshole, or that he's a fucking saint, I just don't want to know! I want to hold on to the mental picture I have of him and thats it. But I did make the error of watching footage of him being just himself, damn that was stupid of me. I watched half of this clip: Jeremy - youtube, and I just had to stop. My god, the bad humor, and that stupid silly bitch next to him, aaargh! No no, that is not what I want him to be. So I looked for some more, trying to hold on to the romantic mental image that I still have. And I found this: Yummy Jeremy, and oh my god, yum!! 
  The reason why I really really really am enjoying watching him is because his has this natural charisma, and he just seems to be born to be a romantic. There are only few that I know, who really just make me melt just by looking at a girl in a certain way. He just has it in him to connect romantically. I saw it already in Peter Pan, even tho he was just a little kid! But the way he looked at Wendy in the movie, or peaked behind her shoulder and whispered into her ear, hurrrrr ggrrrrrhhhaaah......! 
  I usually don't go for the pretty-boy-look, but with him I gotta make an exception. I just wish that I'd see him in better and bigger roles. Somewhere where he could just really let lose, and become something big.  
  I took some screencaps from the video... Oh and the thing that I have with men and black shirts! Oh dear... I've had some sort of a fetish with black shirts for as long as I can remember. Black shirt just makes a man look so yummy! I don't know why, and it doesn't work on EVERY guy, but most, definitely most. Him included! Grrrh! 
  He just has that thing, that is very hard, or even impossible to describe by words. That silent confidence, strong charisma and ability to just force his way to your soul just by looking at you! Mmm... 
  It's a shame tho, that I don't think that his own personality would be something I'd enjoy. But on the other hand, it would be massive torture to know, that there is indeed a perfect man, across the ocean, dating these hot hollywood women, and wouldn't even look twice in my way. Aaaaand on some other hand, the man isn't perfect if he woudn't look twice my way. I might not be the perfect girl, and I'm not a model of your dreams, but I do deserve another look from a guy. And that is something more women and girls should realize. If a guy, even if the man of your dreams, doesn't pay attention to you, even after several tries, then he isn't the man you thought he would be! Cos why on earth would you want to be with a man who doesn't give a crap wether you're alive or not! Do you really have so little of self-respect? Really!? Do you really think that little of yourself, that even when a guy is ignoring you and/or being rude or what ever, he is still the dreamiest guy on earth? Really?! This is something that I've never really understood. 
   And then there's the issue of falling in love with a guy, and falling in love with the guy you thought/wanted him to be. Most girls/women can't tell those two apart, who he really is and who you want/imagine him to be. (Men do the same, probably even more when it comes to beautiful women). You CANNOT fall in love with a person that you don't know! Thats a fact. But what you can do, is to create a personality to that person in your head and fall in love with that. As I said earlier in this post, I usually fall in love with the picture that is colored by my imagination. This is what I meant by that.
   It's such shame that most good looking men are mostly idiots. They are arrogant, cocky, stupid, and all that crap. I just would be so nice to find a man who really can make you laugh in the right way, likes the same things as you do, and would be the kind of attractive that you find attractive (cos there is a lot of different kinds of attractiveness!). Oh wait, haha, silly me, I have found that! And I've been with him for the last four and a half years. 

Friday, June 17, 2011

Rambling 03 I apologize... Wait, what.. NO I DO NOT!

The other day when I was planning in my head all the things that I would love to blog about, I noticed, that I started everything by apologizing the things I was about to talk/ramble about... Then I started to think about it a bit more. I mean, I have thought about it before this, but I started to think about it how I want to blog and about what do I want to blog about. Cos I know a lot of judgemental people, and during the years I've just learned to apologize beforehand when I'm about to speak my mind. Specially if it has anything to do with me getting so excited about things that my friends feel are stupid or childish. And that is not what this blog is about. I started this blog so I CAN blog about ANYTHING I want whenever I want, and as excited as I want and as stereotypical teen-fangirl-way as I want! The whole point of this blog to me is that I don't have to give shit what others think of me, and I can just freely express myself without holding anything back! If someone doesn't like it, then that is their problem and it is their decision whether they keep on reading or not. I did not start this to get as much readers as possible. I mean, I do want readers, cos I want to meet knew people, and I really like hearing others thoughts. But I won't shoot myself if I don't get some certain number of readers, or I won't become insanely famous with this blog.
   I want to express myself freely.  And a diary just isn't enough. I want to share all of my stupid little infatuations on everything! And I get A LOT of them, constantly. I just feel like shouting it to the world whenever I find something that inspires me or makes me happy, or horny or whatever. Yes, I said horny. When I say everything, I mean everything.
   I'm just so sick of apologizing my entire existense sometimes. I mean, I know that no one actually demands or expects this of me, but I don't exactly feel accepted as I am. And right now, actually, I feel that no one accepts me as I am. Everyone has some sort of a problem with me. Even myself. And now again, I feel like I should apologize for feeling like this. For feeling like nobody accepts me as I am. I just constantly have this feeling that I'm not allowed to feel as I feel, or it's somehow wrong.Well it stops here! Here, I'm allowed to feel whatever I feel, and say whatever I want! Damn it...
(from google)

Monday, June 13, 2011

Side note 01

Damn, I just realized that the smileys that I use, don't really work with the font that I've chosen for the site... -___- I gotta start using small pictures or something....

Rambling 02 Be my Peter Pan

Hook (1991)
Oh dear... I just want to hate Peter Pan the movie (2003). I just want to hate it so much! Why? Cos I'm so loyal to Steven Spielbergs Hook (1991)!! I love it so so much, and I've watched it like couple of dosen times and I'll keep watching it... I love Robin Williams and Dustin Hoffman, and the kids are great too, and Rufio, ooooh Rufio.... The movie is so great and I just do not get tired of it. Its one of the movies that I want to make a proper review as well.

  Then came the Peter Pan in 2003. When I saw the trailer I just cursed out loud that god damn it, they've done some new shitty live action version of it and probably totally raped the whole story with horrible actors and horrible editing etc etc. So I didin't watch it until a year or two ago.... And I fucking loved it!  I loved it! I still love it. I just watched it last night again, and it was even better than I remembered. I will actually write a proper review later, while watching it the third time x) heheh... But don't get me wrong, I do not think this is better than Hook. I am not comparing them, cos the story is complately different! They cannot be compared. I love them both now.
Jeremy Sumpter (on the right)
   I just cannot get over the fact how well the kids are actually acting! And Jeremy Sumpter.. Oh my god, Jeremy... QuQ The ten-year-old in me is dieing of heartache <3(I get crushes very easily, and I've gotten crushes since I was 3 I guess. Belive it or don't, I know what I feel!) When I saw the first picture of the new Peter Pan, his face  actually irritated me so so so much, and I was so sure the he would be so crappy as an actor and ruin the whole movie. I was so wrong. The way he lives the role... How he feels the character... Its unbelivable for as a young as he is. I just want to watch the movie again and again. Its the most romantic version of Peter Pan that I've seen, so so romantic and so sad!
Jason Isaacks
  Oh, and then there was Jason Isaacs <3 mmmmmh. He really looks good with black hair and pirate clothing! Specially with the big ruffly black shirt! Oh my god, so yummy! Grraaaaah.... I really really like his acting aswell :3

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Rambling 01

So a new blog. Not the first for me thou. I've had few blogs, and I haven't really committed myself to any of them. I finally figured out what the problem was with it, why I didn't commit and blog frequently and keep my readers updated. I was really trying hard to keep it simple, and blog about a certain thing, to keep it very centered around one topic, and I got bored. And I couldn't think anything to say, 'cos I was trying to censor out the things that didn't have anything to do with the main topic.
   But the problem is, that I'm not about just one thing, I cannot concentrate on just one thing or one theme. I just cannot. I just want to share everything that pops into my head. And if I cannot commit to one blog, then I sure as hell can't commit to several. So, one blog.
   This one. So hi! Nice to meet you! :)

Elikkäs, uusi blogi. Ei tosiaan mun ensimmäinen. Oon perustanu parikin tätä ennen mutta en oo vaan sitten saanu sitouduttua niihin. Tajusin nyt sitten vihdoin, että mistä kiikasti, et miksi en jaksanu päivitellä tasaiseen tahtiin ja pitää niitä ajan tasalla. Mä yritin todella epätoivoisesti pitää ne yksinkertaisina ja yhden aiheen ympärillä, mutta sitten mä vaan kyllästyin. En keksinyt mitään päivitettävää, koska yritin pitää kaikki aiheeseen liittymättömät asiat poissa.
   Mutta siinä on vaan sitten se onglema, että mä en pysty keskittymään vaan yhteen asiaan kerralla. En vaan pysty, mä en ole sellainen. Mä haluan jakaa kaiken mikä nyt sattuu ponnahtamaan mun päähän. Ja monen blogin pitäminen on ihan naurettavaa, joten vain yksi blogi. Tämä. Tätä päivitän ja pidän yllä parhaani mukaan. Eli tere! Kiva tutustua! :)